You’ve been lonely, too long
Let me in the wall
You’ve built around yourself
“Dust to Dust” by The Civil Wars
Dear Future Self,
Congratulations on finishing the first leg of a never ending race. In case someone hasn’t told you today; you are beautiful, smart, caring, and everything is going to turn out just fine. The fact that you are here today proves that you are a survivor. You made it through all the bullshit with your dad. You made it through the distress of changing schools. You made it through the emotional roller coaster from your mom. Most importantly, you made it despite yourself. You will always be your own worst enemy and your mean fighting side. If things didn’t work out with J-, I’m sorry. If you did, go treat yourself to some celebratory sex. Hey, you deserve a great night of fun for getting through.
Now you will be off to college and whether you got into JMU or NOVA, I’ll be proud of you. You have such a bright future ahead of you. Being independent will bring that side out further. I want you to spend this summer just enjoying life. Go kayak, work, explore, cruise, drive, and not care. Once you are back in school, I expect you to try to stay motivated. Be all I know you can be. Whatever happens, don’t let people get you down.